On stage, God
is intrigued by his own creation
wants to become human

wants to have joints
to reach out, his palms to open, to pinch the sky
to turn the sun back to warm himself
or to pick a star
and stick it closer to someone

wants to have eyes
in order to close them
to differentiate darkness from others
transparency from others
blood surging in the body and its color
how to scab
wants to cry

wants to have feet
to step on the ground
and rise
to stand on tiptoes like a circle’s center and spin
or to walk slowly or fast
or to sit cross-legged like a pond of deep water
upholding lotuses

wants to have more wants
wants to enlarge
as well wants to tighten
wants a metronome to rhythmically swing
wants a flashlight to light up a glare, guide a glittering
wants someone to lock the flashlight somewhere on my body
like a heart transplant
then dismantle it
wants to lose

wants to become human
to be in control of oneself
and out of control
pulling like two living things
human puppets
Adam and Eve
the snake and the Little Prince
a hole and quicksand
to want and
to be wanted
on stage, God
moves together with his creation
unmoving
in face of a world that makes room for wants
he deeply bows

¹ Name of a robot companion conceptualized and programmed by Taiwanese dancer and choreographer Huang Yi. The two danced onstage together in Huang Yi & KUKA, a performance about loneliness and self-realization during Huang’s childhood.

庫卡

舞台上
神被自己的造物所吸引
渴望變成人類

渴望擁有關節
可以伸手、開掌、掐住天空
把太陽轉回來溫暖自己
或者摳下一顆星星
黏到更靠近誰的其他地方

渴望擁有眼睛
可以閉上
辨別黑暗與其他
透明與其他
體內湧動的鮮血色
如何結痂
渴望哭

渴望擁有腳
可以踏地
騰起
踮起腳尖作為圓心旋轉
或慢跑或疾走
或盤坐如一潭深水
撐起蓮花

渴望渴望更多
渴望開展
也渴望收緊
渴望節拍器擺盪韻律
渴望椅子折疊內斂
渴望手電筒照明注視指引閃爍
渴望有人把手電筒鎖緊在我身體某處
如安裝心臟
又拆卸
渴望失去

渴望變成人類
為自己所控
又失控
拉扯像僅僅是兩具宛如活物的
人型木偶
亞當與夏娃
蛇與小王子
洞與流沙
渴望與
被渴望

舞台上
神與自己的造物一起移動
不動
面對容納渴望的世界
深深鞠躬